Timing
Something that had really been on my mind lately is timing. I have always known that things have to happen in their own time, but I haven’t really paid very much attention to it, and it hasn’t really ever hit me as hard as it is now. As I have already finished my undergraduate career, and am still in Ada, I’m starting to feel that its my time to leave. Being in Ada and not being a student, or attending classes, is really weird. It’s like I’ve overstayed my welcome. I can feel that it’s time for me to move on, although I’m just moving back home. I will definitely miss all of my friends and running with the squad, but its just time. These days I would rather be home with my family, and going back to Ada from being at home gets tougher and tougher.
At the same time, I have the overwhelming feeling that there are a lot of things in my life that it’s not time for, no matter how much I wish it were. It’s weird - it’s like I’m trying to convince myself that it’s time, when I know that it’s really not. I guess that this kind of ties in with the patience thing that I wrote about last time. Funny how things stay on your mind, or how they just keep coming up at certain moments. I think that I can safely say that God is using this time to teach me a lot of things, and I am finally at a place where I am a more than willing student. :)
On a side note completely unrelated to what I just said, I love my friends. A whole bunch. Leaving Ada (while something that I need to do, and am looking forward to) is going to be very difficult. My friends are my support system, and they are what keeps me going. I hate the fact that I will be leaving most of them, and not seeing them for long periods of time - you know who you are people. I am so thankful that I have been blessed with amazing people in my life, that are there for me through thick and thin, and love me for me :).
