.:Perfect Chaos:.

I am BACK from the Bahamas. As much as I don’t want to be. I still maintain that a cruise is the most relaxing vacation that you can take. It’s amazing. This week I laid out in the sun a lot, sat on the balcony and listened to the ocean, as well as swimming in the waves. Salt water does heal everything…at least, for me. It’s kind of funny - I was in the sun so much, that I came back about 2 shades darker than I was when I left…definitely came back a different color. The ship docked at 2 different ports: Nassau, which also includes Paradise Island, and Half Moon Cay, which is the island that the cruise company owns. Both stops were great, albeit completely different. Half Moon Cay was really relaxing with an extremely calm ocean, and Nassau was full of native Bahamians and good times. If you haven’t been to the Carribbean, I highly recommend it. Being down there changes you - you see things from a different perspective.

Anyways, I won’t bore you with details, but it was great. It was also awesome to go with Linds, since she’s going to be in Kentucky in the fall, and I’m not sure how much we’ll be able to actually be in the same zip code. :( That’s gonna be rough, especially since we’ve been roomies for 2 years.

Something that I have been thinking about a lot, and something that I really thought about on the cruise, was about being happy. A quote that I got from Kristen a long time ago comes to my mind:

Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to live life despite its imperfections. So be happy. Because life sucks, but you’re doing just fine.

Now, I realize that life doesn’t always suck. But I think that we can all agree that sometimes when you’re in a valley instead of on a mountain, life can suck a little. Or a lot, depending. I’ve also thought a lot about being content with life, which I think ties into this quote too. I’ve realized that being content and happy doesn’t have to be a constant state of mind - even though you might think that it should be. I am extremely happy and content with my life…but there are times when something hits me, and I’m not necessarily unhappy, but I’m not as content as I could be/was. This is the part that gets tough. Sometimes it’s really hard knowing God’s plan, or trying to be content knowing that God will take care of me. I know that everything happens for a reason and that it will all be on God’s time…but right now, tonight, it’s hard for me to be okay with that. I’m too impatient for my own good.

So, that’s basically all that I wanted to say. That I’m impatient, and tired of wishing and hoping for things to happen…while having this overwhelming feeling that I’m doing so for nothing. Because it seems like nothing ever comes along when I really want something to…it’s only when I don’t want it or don’t expect it. But how do you tell yourself to stop wanting or expecting it?