.:Perfect Chaos:.

So, I have recently come into new territory in my life. I am happy, content, and at peace with life. Which is somewhere that I’ve never been before. I am usually the person who comes off as happy or okay with life to other people, but rarely is that the actual case. Most of the time, I’m just a very private person, and don’t really want the world to know that I am struggling with life. 

However, for the past few weeks, I have been insanely happy, and overall “good”. I know that God has some amazing plans for my future, even if I don’t know what they are yet. I am finally content with the life that I have, instead of always wanting what other people have. For me, just being “happy” is a huge step - as anyone who knows about my battles with depression can attest. I thank God that the “depression” chapter of my life is behind me, and right now, could not seem farther away. And the added bonus of being peaceful and content is amazing. I think that the clarity and calm that I have about life has come about by finally getting everything in line with God again, and getting to the place where I am happy about being single. I have never been the “dependent” type of girl who always needs to be in a relationship, but truly being content and happy with being single has been something that I haven’t experienced for a long time. 

So, all that being said, I believe that a lot of attitude about life, and the way that people are content or unhappy with life all comes from the outlook that you have. My future right now is pretty much uncertain. While there are a few things that I know will happen or I am planning to do, the rest is in a state of limbo. And for once, I’m okay with that. More than okay with it. I’m actually pretty happy about it. Life is happening to me, and I couldn’t be happier about it. :) Getting out of the shell of the college world will be exciting and scary at the same time, but its a good kind of exciting and scary. 

Something else that I am over the moon about is that I will be going on a cruise to the Bahamas at the end of this week. We (parents, brother, bestest Lindsay) will be leaving from my house on Friday morning, and will be driving to Jacksonville, Florida, where the ship will be leaving from. I’m a firm believer in the fact that saltwater can heal EVERYTHING…regardless of whether its sweat, tears, or the sea. There’s just something completely healing about the ocean. From the sunsets and sunrises, to just hearing the water and watching the waves. I love the ocean deeply, and I love being able to stand on the deck of a ship, look all around me, and see nothing but water. For me, its an awesome feeling. There’s no land in sight, just the open water. That’s one of my favorite things about being on a cruise - I can sit on the deck and just watch the water. 

As per usual, this has just been a bunch of random thoughts and ramblings. But you know, they are my random thoughts and ramblings. So, take it or leave it…I just have a lot to say, and maybe someone might read it. :)

~Everything can be healed by Saltwater….

…Sweat….

….Tears….

…or the Sea… :)~