This is kind of how I’ve been feeling in my life lately. I have the tendency to put wayyy too much trust in people, and then become disappointed when they do something to lose that trust. So either people just like to betray me/stab me in the back/lose my trust, or I just find the wrong people to trust all together. I don’t know which is more accurate, but its rough all the same. It’s extremely irritating, and very hurtful when you lose someone because they decided to put themselves first, no matter what it does to anyone else.
I guess that trusting people and losing that trust is an endless cycle that’s an inherent part of life. However, this is a mistake that I can’t seem to learn from, because I never see the betrayal coming. Sometimes people say that you have to look out for yourself first and foremost, because no one else will. Screw everyone else. I guess that I’m a bit mixed up with this. Too many times I worry about everyone else, and what’s best for them, and put myself on the backburner. I don’t think that I’m wrong in doing this….it’s just that it seems sometimes like I’m the only one who does it. I don’t mind helping people, I mean, I live the EMT life to the fullest, but it’s painful when others go after what they want and I’m the one that gets hurt. This is one of those things where I feel like I’m the only one that this happens to. So if you’ve felt like this…no worries, I’m right there with you. :)
